Thursday, July 1, 2010

The day of treats.......

So today I ate treats! They were/are quite tasty. Let me just give you an idea of what it was like.

Clay wanted to be a part of the whole scene where I eat chocolate for the first time. So I made peanut butter swirl brownies (YUM) last night, and we each ate a slice about 1"x2". Not exaggerating, it was really that small. Neither of us had eaten breakfast yet and I was scared. I'm not joking. I had that piece in my hand for a good 15 seconds before I ate it and I kept saying, "I'm so scared!" The only thing I can really relate it to that I think would put perspective is...you know how you're told over and over again- no sex no sex no sex, then you get married and all of a sudden it's okay? You are scared and almost feeling kinda guilty? Like...wait, it's okay now? I'm kinda scared. Well...that's kinda the feeling I had here.

So I ate the bite of brownie and it was pretty good. But I was like- seriously? That's it? I don't even want more. I was expecting to be like "OH MY GOSH, WHAT HAVE I BEEN MISSING?!??!!" But...not really. So I brought a brownie for myself, and my coworkers to work...they ate theirs and I seriously couldn't eat mine. My body was already full on sweets from the morning! So after about an hour...I decided to take a bite. This brownie was about 3"x3" or so...and it took me 2 WHOLE HOURS to finish it! I'm not joking! It's all I could handle! I just took a bite every time I felt like it...and it took 2 hours to finish a VERY SMALL brownie. Then I just felt like I needed LOTS OF WATER. I drank SO MUCH water today...i think I was just trying to cleanse myself or something.

So I came home for lunch and there were the brownies. Now the old Danielle would've eaten...2, probably 4 brownies during her lunch break. But this new Danielle, she didn't even touch them! I didn't want any!

I ate less than half a candybar that my coworkers have been raving about for a month. But couldn't finish it. It was really really good, but I just couldn't! I'd eat one square, and I'd be like, "Woah...okay...slow down there" SERIOUSLY- crazy!

So I think my 6 month fast on sweets worked! In fact, I have here a brownie infront of me, cause I thought I wanted one...and I've taken 2 bites. And it's been like 20 minutes. I just can't handle it anymore!

Now I have to say something that BUGS me. So many people, when they find out I'm doing this...say things like, "Oh I couldn't do that." or "Oh I love treats WAY too much to do that"...or something. They act as if I didn't like treats, wasn't as addicted as them, or whatever. I'll have you know that I am the ONLY person in the entire UNIVERSE that I've EVER MET besides my siblings, that could eat as much treats, OR who was as addicted to treats. And pretty much every person I've ever known has eaten treats around me because I always made treats. Always. So....I saw how much they ate. The point is- it is kinda offensive when people act like that cause it's as if they are down-playing my accomplishment here. I am SO proud because I know that this was a HUGE dedication and I didn't slip ONCE! I went 6 WHOLE MONTHS without sweets, and I am SO PROUD of that.

And I've just gotta say, this was one of the most empowering things I've ever done. It's like- I have power over my body. And....I really REALLY suggest it to EVERYone. And, not that this was the reason, I lost like 5ish pounds doing it I think, and I'd probably have lost a lot more if I had more body weight. So yeah........just do it.

6 comments:

AMY AND MIKEY said...

OH MY GOSH- I just wrote a HUGE comment, about how amazing you are for doing this. UHhhhhhhhhhhh. OK- first of all, I'm so sorry for not calling you today! I was going to call you to see how the first day eating treats went, and then I forgot! I feel like I missed your birthday or something! Ok- when people say "i could never do that" they might mean it in a way like- "I could never do that, because I'm not as strong as you, I'm weak, I have no will power"- like- it just shows how amazing you are for doing it, because how many people have done that? Not many. But you have! Because you are so strong! and have so much will power! It is so incredible that you were able to do this and over come your temptations! Because I know what treats are to you! I love how empowered it made you feel. I'm sure this blog will inspire alot of people. I love you! And have fun on your 4th of July activities!

Patty said...

YOu are amazingly strong considering your love of treats..I agree with you that the treats are not as good anymore and you feel better without the bad stuff in your body..I just do not crave them as much as I used to..have a great day..bye now..

Lizzie said...

I'm so proud of you. You are absolutely amazing. Thanks for telling us all about it. I really was wondering exactly what it'd be like when you ate them again. So interesting....

love you

Sharon/mom said...

Wow! I think it is so amazing what you did. The results are very interesting. I hope it stays. Since I have been more focused on weight watchers, I don't eat as many treats as I used to. Actually since I went back to ww's 8 years ago I don't eat sweets as much as I used too. But it makes me wonder what I would be like if I did that. I still want treats and think about them, not all the time, but more than I want. So I feel like I have balance, but the cravings are still more than I'd like. I think I want to watch you for a while and see how it works out. I don't say that to put pressure, I just am curious how long these feelings last. If they last for a long time it would be so worth it. I am very proud of you!!!! love you!

Megan and Greg said...

I thought you looked thinner! Isn't it amazing that when you're that small, just a few pounds can make a difference? I remember that. When I was as skinny as you I would fluctuate a good 3-5 pounds all the time and could totally tell. I really don't think I'd notice a loss of 3 pounds now, or ever again. Anyway. I can't believe you didn't slip ONCE. That is impressive. I wouldn't get offended when people say they couldn't do what you did, to me that's a compliment to you. And them saying they love sweets too much doesn't mean it's too hard, or harder than it was for you, it just means they don't have as much will power. I am really proud of you!!! I bet you'd get the same effect if you went 3 months or even a month without sweets. It doesn't take long to break the habit and feel that effect of, "Oh I can't finish this bite" kind of feeling. Because I've never gone as long as you, I've never even gone a MONTH, but I've definitely had that feeling. I had that feeling with Weight Watchers and I had sweets everyday! But I had a SMALL amount of sweets everyday and then I got to the point where I couldn't finish a candybar either. What is this miraculous candybar your work was raving about? So did Clay eat sweets in front of you through this whole process? I was so glad you called yesterday!!! You inspire me. It makes me want to do Weight Watchers again after I have the baby, because I have just lost all control. But I don't want to off the sweets completely. That's just not worth it to me, at least not yet!

Kristi M. said...

Yeah! Congrats and how interesting. We aren't huge treat eaters at our house. I went to make cookies the other day and realized that my cookie scoop broke months ago and I needed to buy a new one. It had been that long. I love chocolate chip cookies but for the life of me I can make a good batch regularly. Gunnar on the other hand is a treat eater if I let him.