I am worked out, showered, lotioned, and ready to sleep. Not quite yet though.
I feel like I learned a really important lesson today on balance. Life is seriously all about balance. This week I have done pretty much nothing but watch tv...at times I felt a titch guilty or something. But then I realized I'm okay. Last week I made a list of stuff to do and promised I'd get a reward if I did it all. Well, I did get a LOT of it done, not all, but a lot! So, I did one extra chore of vacuuming the dreaded stairs and then spent all day Saturday watching Season two of downtown abbey. So good. This week I had no list and didn't get anything done. I mean I did essentials. But not much more than that! And you know what I realized? Heavenly father doesn't want us to live in guilt. He doesn't want us to be sad or unhappy if we aren't perfect or doing things the best way ALL THE TIME. it's a balancing act. So when I thought, oh man I have done nothing all week, I respond, it's not a big deal, you did a lot last week, you need breaks, it's part of keeping up your health.
Another thing I relearned. My life will always feel out of balance if I'm not reading my scriptures. Sometimes I feel like my life is spiraling out of control. Then I remember to read my scriptures and what do you know. My life comes back together! I swear to you...striving and putting effort towards getting closer to our lord brings blessings of security and balance!
Tonight at Zumba I had another flash of perspective of when my body didn't work right. Talk about guilt. "why can't you handle this?" my brain would say to my body. "why is it so hard for you but so easy for others?" I'm so grateful. So grateful to have a working body again. I can make dinner and do dishes. I can get ready in the morning. It's wonderful. And I'm so grateful for the lessons of patience I've learned. Mostly patience with myself.
Well, time for bed.
8 comments:
True true. Somedays I feel bad for watching tv, like I know I shouldn't. But other days I know it's exactly what I'm doing and don't feel bad at all. Sometimes it's ok and it's like you said, you need balance. I love those days of not feeling bad and watching tv. Sounds wierd, but it's true. I'm glad your body is working again and you feel a difference. And the scriptures. So true, so true. It's not even something I relearn anymore. It's like I have a rough few days and I'm like, "What's my deal?!" And then I realize, oh yeah- I haven't read my scriptures in a few days. There you go. An obvious problem with an obvious and easy solution. I'm so excited for you to come! I can definitely only do DC one day. After going to the zoo- it just did me in. I can only do that once in a week, twice would be toooo much right now. But we'll still have fun. I want to go your first day, but you fly in so late- I'm not sure. Either Friday or Monday- Saturday would be extra crowded so I want to avoid that. We'll play it by ear- and look at the weather. I'll do better and last longer in cooler weather. LOVE YOU!!!
I think there is something to be said about Idaho Falls. I learned that lesson while I was there, too! I had a really good and completely type-A LDS friend that renounced his faith while I lived up there. His reasoning was he was sick of the guilt. Then I realized how often I feel guilty! I need to just relax and know that I'm trying. My hardest thing is I know we are supposed to try our best every day, and sometimes I look back and think, I didn't try my best today. It's a cycle, I tell ya. But I, too, am becoming more and more patient. And life is becoming more and more great. :)
You are such a wonderful example to me and I miss you. I love you.
Good reminders!! I have to tell myself that once in a while too! I totally agree about reading your scriptures! I have had very similar experiences with that one!! Love you!
That was an awesome post. It's amazing how reading scriptures affects your life. For me, it just gets me back into perspective. Focusing and thinking about the right things. Thank you for these reminders. You are such an example to me and I love and miss you so much. :)
OH danyelli, you are such an amazing wonderful person. Thankyou for all the good reminders. I hope you REMEMBER this next time you don't get your list done. I'm so glad you're realizing Heavenly Father doesn't expect you to be perfect. I love you so much. And I can't believe we haven't talked about Downton Abbey yet!!!!!!!!!
Yeah I think life is a balance, work hard then relax, sometimes when I feel guilty I do other things while I watch tv, like write in a journal or make a card for someone. Also how did you watch Season 2 of Downton Abbey, it's not on Netfilx or Hulu is it?
I just caught up on your blogs and will comment on this one. I loved the looks of the Healthy Popcorn, it could become a favorite of mine if I could eat popcorn again. I miss you and am so looking forward to seeing you in July. It will be fun to hang out with all of you. I agree that life is all about balance and it is so important to pace ourselves, and it is great that you are learning this at such a young age. Heavenly Father really doesn't expect us to run faster than we can walk. Grandpa just came in and says Hi to you. I think the classics are the best. I have read so many, but not LM I will have to look that one up. Love you so much Hugs and Kisses
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