I am worked out, showered, lotioned, and ready to sleep. Not quite yet though.
I feel like I learned a really important lesson today on balance. Life is seriously all about balance. This week I have done pretty much nothing but watch tv...at times I felt a titch guilty or something. But then I realized I'm okay. Last week I made a list of stuff to do and promised I'd get a reward if I did it all. Well, I did get a LOT of it done, not all, but a lot! So, I did one extra chore of vacuuming the dreaded stairs and then spent all day Saturday watching Season two of downtown abbey. So good. This week I had no list and didn't get anything done. I mean I did essentials. But not much more than that! And you know what I realized? Heavenly father doesn't want us to live in guilt. He doesn't want us to be sad or unhappy if we aren't perfect or doing things the best way ALL THE TIME. it's a balancing act. So when I thought, oh man I have done nothing all week, I respond, it's not a big deal, you did a lot last week, you need breaks, it's part of keeping up your health.
Another thing I relearned. My life will always feel out of balance if I'm not reading my scriptures. Sometimes I feel like my life is spiraling out of control. Then I remember to read my scriptures and what do you know. My life comes back together! I swear to you...striving and putting effort towards getting closer to our lord brings blessings of security and balance!
Tonight at Zumba I had another flash of perspective of when my body didn't work right. Talk about guilt. "why can't you handle this?" my brain would say to my body. "why is it so hard for you but so easy for others?" I'm so grateful. So grateful to have a working body again. I can make dinner and do dishes. I can get ready in the morning. It's wonderful. And I'm so grateful for the lessons of patience I've learned. Mostly patience with myself.
Well, time for bed.