Wednesday, February 1, 2012

tired girl...

This is a picture of a tired girl. Her eyes look kinda funny...does one of my eyes always look off-center? I don't think so....but maybe that's just what happens when I'm tired and trying to take a picture of myself with an iphone without looking at the phone, so that it looks like I'm looking at the camera, not know?

So you know...the usual. Work, school, lots of chicken. What?! I don't know why I do these things sometimes. I feel like I have enough on my plate and then I go and add something! Have you heard of Zaycon chicken? buy a TON of chicken at once for a discounted price, and its 100% natural chicken with no added hormones, additives, or artificial ingredients. I'm not SUPER convinced of it just cause like, it's not organic or free range...but I figure it's better than the usual grocery store junk. Anywho...I bought 40 POUNDS OF CHICKEN! It's all fresh, right from the farm or wherever, and its just a ton of boneless skinless breasts, but they aren't cleaned up or anything. So it's my job to cut, freeze, make meals, etc. Tonight I made a bunch of chicken taquitos. YUM. I love them, and they are good for lunches and freeze. Tomorrow I'm going to make chicken taco wrap stuff. Anyway, I'm hoping to get it all done by Saturday. OH- but a major good thing of my friends from my ward paid me for half. So I only have to deal with 20 pounds...which is still a lot.

Today I told Clay, "My goodness- can you imagine what life will be like once I'm not taking these danged classes?!"....then I said..."Screw classes...just think how life will be without Lyme and pills!". Seriously, you'd think we'd get used to taking so many pills...but it's the biggest stress. Such a pain and we both hate it. Certain pills make it so that water tastes bad. And everything you eat tastes bad. It just makes your mouth taste so bad. For HOURS after you take it. So annoying. I'm taking a pill like that right now. Oh well, I'd rather have that then gut wrenching Clay is having! Man oh man. I just keep telling myself to hang on for a year and we'll just feel like we have the best life in the whole world. A life without pills, pain, classes? Seriously sounds like heaven. 

I am pretty excited about my chicken though. It's forcing me to make a bunch of meals, and I love that. So much better and cheaper than eating out when I'm too tired to cook.

I am busy, and tired, but I am feeling good. Life really is good and Clay and I are so blessed. I have been reminded so much lately of how much my body was limited a year ago. Its so funny because no one really would notice or know...because I could do normal things. I just couldn't do more than one normal thing in a day. I just remember anytime I went grocery shopping I had to bring back something for dinner cause there was NO WAY I could do grocery shopping and cooking in a day. Even if I just picked up a few things. So strange. Because now I can. When I think of how much better my body is, I am happy. Clay too. He worked out today and yesterday! That makes me happy. I know I talk about all this a lot, but I need to recognize it and talk it out. It helps me.

Really, I am so happy! I think angels are helping me with my school cause somehow I'm passing all my classes and still doing all the normal things in life (with the exception of having a dirty kitchen...a lot...). I do wish I had more time for crafts/sewing...there are some ideas that just keep coming to me and I just don't have time for them. Oh well. Just a few more months and my time is all mine. 

Well, time to go finish packing those taquitos for freezing. and sleep :)


Lizzie said...

well all i see is a hot girl.

i know you weren't complaining, but i just don't know how you do it.


you amaze me.

i wish we lived closer. you know i'd just make extra dinner and feed you every night. AND we could craft together. we would've been making those hearts together.

maybe someday.

love you and miss you!

Megan and Greg said...

Your eyes are not lop sided. I feel that way in pics too, sometimes. That is sweet about the chicken. I did that once, but only 10 pounds, I think and it seemed like it would never end. Did you make that recipe I sent you? Aren't they the BEST!?! They are. They really are. I think about how much better you're gonna feel all the TIME!!! Especially right now. You are so on overload. Suddenly your WORK will lighten up BIG TIME, and suddenly NO SCHOOL and hopefully your body will be better too. Suddenly you'll feel light as a feather. You'll see. I'm glad you feel blessed. It's hard to feel that way thru hard times. I'm starting to feel like I'm not going to see any of you for like 2-3 years. I really hope not. That would suck. A lot. Hopefully we'll be able to make a big trip before we go overseas. I think we'll be able to. Everything's just so unsure right now. Keep blogging. Love to hear what's going on. Love you.

Kayleen said...

Poor danielley :( I'm sorry you're so tired and have to deal with pills and stuff.

Grandma, Nonnie said...

I think that is a picture of a beautiful young woman. I am sorry you have such a lot of pills to take, I take a few myself, but probably only a few compared to you guys. I really get tired of it too. I think it is wonderful that you are making so many things with your chicken. Sounds really good, and it is so nice to have something ready when you are tired. I am so tired right now, I will blog about it on Sat or Sun. I hope your lyme's will be totally gone by the end of this year. I am glad you feel blessed and happy. That is wonderful, you are an amazing young woman and I have nothing but praise for you. Remember what I said about being negative about yourself, just don't ever go there. You are perfect. I love you so much. Hugs

Kristi M. said...

I love Zaycon! I've been ordering it for about a year and a half and love it. I usually take my 40 pounds and just separate it into 2 chicken breasts per bag and freeze it that way. In some I put italian dressing, in others BBQ sauce and others just the chicken. That way when it is thawing out, it also marinates the chicken. It makes the chicken taste SO much better!

Jenni said...

Dang girl. I don't know how you do it. And it sounds to me like being tired is well deserved because you're working so hard. I think you look fabulous while doing it all, as well :)

sheena said...

Hang in there girl! I look back over my journey (we are at 3 1/2 years now!) and I can't believe some of the stuff we made it through. (I say we because even though my husband doesn't have lyme, we are definitely in this together!)

I got to a point last spring where I was taking so many pills my body was literally starting to reject them. I would start to gag before they even got to my mouth. And I know what you mean by the WORST taste in your mouth! But I have been off antibiotics now for two months, and I have never been so thankful! I am still on some herbals, but it's nothing compared to what it was, and symptoms are becoming smaller all the time. You will get there!

Sharon/Mom/ Grandma said...

Well, I don't know if it is the mom in me or what, but I see a tired girl! I think being a mom always makes you worry and concerned. I'm glad though that Heavenly Father has blessed you so that you can do everything you need to do! He could have said, "you are running faster than you have strength", but he didn't he has blessed you! That chicken thing sounds cool. I can't believe you can take care of that and everything else. You are amazing! love and miss you!

Aliese the Writer said...

You don't look tired at all! I'm so glad that you feel like life is good and that you are happy. I can't wait to see you this summer! I'm so super excited! Love you! :)