Sunday, January 29, 2012

Church is the best.

Seriously. It's like, everytime I am having the worst time, and don't want to go to church...but force myself to go...I am spiritually filled more than I even thought possible! This morning I was in a dark place...I wanted nothing more than to stay home. Clay wasn't feeling well, so he wasn't going. I was tired, sick of my life, and just down. Then I decided....I had to go. If I stopped going to church because I didn't feel like it, I'd lose myself, and Satan would be so happy. So I went. I was late, but I went.

Church was basically prepared for me today. It was all about waiting on the Lord, and how our trials are "but a small moment". We need to remember that He is aware of us, and He knows the right timing, and if we know we are waiting on the Lord, and endure with faith...all will be well and we will be rewarded more than we can imagine.

I am counting on that.

I'm so grateful for my faith. I don't know where I'd be or what condition I'd be in without it. Just the simple faith I have that God knows me, cares about me, and is there for me if I TRULY put faith in really what keeps me going. I had an experience recently where I prayed for something specific. I prayed so much. I then felt the urging to do certain things, and they didn't logically make sense to me... but I did them anyway because I knew my prayer was being answered... I had faith and my prayer WAS answered and my problem solved. I feel like if we REALLY have no reservations and just put our full trust in God, he will lead us to the right place everytime.

I am SO grateful for lessons I learn from the scriptures, and especially the Book of Mormon. Today I was reminded that if something sucks, or we don't like a situation we are in...there is NO way you will get out of it by complaining or just waiting around. You have to ask the Lord for help, and work for it. We talked about Nephi, and how when he was in the wilderness his bow broke. Him and his family had no food, and all his family were complaining and doing nothing and blaming Nephi. Nephi prayed for help, built another bow, and searched for food. He was led to the right place, and got food. He never complained and didn't get mad at his family. He just did what he had to. I needed to be reminded of that. Sometimes my life feels so crappy. But I felt really good because I feel like I AM doing everything I can to get better. I just need to trust in the Lord more and have more faith. And remember that this is "but a small moment". Want to get some comfort? Read this from the Doctrine & Covenants.  My favorite part of this:

 My son, apeace be unto thy soul; thine badversity and thine afflictions shall be but a csmall moment;
 And then, if thou aendure it well, God shall exalt thee on high; thou shalt triumph over all thy bfoes.
 Thy afriends do stand by thee, and they shall hail thee again with warm hearts and friendly hands.

I seriously needed reminding of that. I am happy because I DO have friends/family that stand by me, and they help. And even though sometimes I feel really lost or lonely, there are moments when I get personal revelation and confirmation that Heavenly Father knows me, Christ knows me, and they love me and are rooting for me. And I know that this dark place I feel I'm in sometimes...wont be forever. 

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Megan and Greg said...

I love you Danielle. I'm sorry life is sucky sometimes, or even a lot of times. You are right though, God has a timeline. I know i have NO IDEA what you're going thru, but honestly when I look back on my life, it all makes sense now. But when I was in it- none of it made sense. I'm sorry your trials are extra sucky and extra long, but I really think they will go away! I love you! I had the same experience this morning, almost skipped Stake Conference. Then we went late. The first 2 talks were exactly what I needed to hear and I was like, "I almost missed this!" After that everything was pretty pointless and I was bad and finally left 30 minutes early. And the rest of my day was crappy. I can't help but wonder if my day would have been happier if I'd stuck it out. Please call me if you're feeling crappy! Or we can Skype with Scarlet!

Angie said...

Sacrament meeting was AWESOME today. I think everyone can apply that topic to their lives. I had a good conversation with Heather Robison on Saturday and what we talked about was almost exactly what Cami did in her talk. There were a couple times during sacrament meeting I specifically thought of you and looked around for you...but didn't see you. I'm glad you were there. I'm glad I was there:)

Not quite the Bradys said...

Hey Danielle-
I loved this post. We've been having a pretty hard time too and these kind of Sundays just keep happening for me every time I don't think I can endure one more day. Elder Holland's "Good Things To Come" Mormon Message has been a strength to me as well as this bit of a CES devotional: Sending you prayers.

Grandma, Nonnie said...

I am so sorry Danielle, that your life is crappy and you feel lost and alone sometimes. It is so hard sometimes to be away from your family and in the cold. I hate the cold, and it has been cold around here especilly at night. I know it isn't nearly as cold as you have over there. I know that the Lord is there for us, as he waits at the door and expects us to ask Him. We are so blessed to know that, and have all of the scriptures we do and know that they are true. I do know that all negative thoughts come from Satan. He loves it when he can get us discouraged enough to not attend. He will lie and cheat to get us down enough to dis-obey our committments and covenants. I love you and you are so wise when you say your favorite scriptures are the ones about the Prophet when he was in Liberty Jail. Such a wonderful promise to all if we will endure. Hugs and Kisses

Jenni said...

What a great post. It's so uplifting to hear how faith and the scriptures are blessing other people's lives. I'm with you 100%. I'm so thankful we're studying the Book of Mormon in sunday school this year. It's the best. I'm glad you went to church and I'm glad it served it's purpose and re-fueled you :)

Sharon/Mom/ Grandma said...

Dang it, I just wrote some things and I hit something that made it disappear!!Anyway, I was saying, that I know I say this a lot, but you are amazing. I love those scriptures too. I know them well, yet in the thick of things it is so easy to forget. I am so grateful that you were so honest and shared all those feelings. We all have our personal Gethsemane's and need the boost from others. Good for you for putting the link to the Book of Mormon. love and miss you sooooo much!

Aliese the Writer said...

So true. It's amazing the spirit you feel at church. I love church too. During all of these moves I would never had had friends if it weren't for the girls in YW at church. I'll always be grateful for them. Stay strong, Danielle. I'm with you. I love you. :)