So, I could totally upload a bunch of pictures of stuff I got...stuff I've been up to...but my back hurts and I'm just too lazy. Yeah, it doesn't take back work to put pictures on...but when my back hurts I am pitiful and just don't really want to do ANYTHING. But I can definitely talk about my birthday.
First, I got a gift card to JoAnns from my parents, which is awesome! I already spent $35 bucks tonight...but I'm gonna take back something cause I realized it just isn't quite right. Then Clay's parents got me an air compressor. Now before you go judging them for getting me a weird gift- I totally ASKED for that. The staple gun I use hooks up to an air tank...and before, I just used Patty & Paul's air tank that I had to keep going back and forth from their house to mine to keep refilling it. This way, I can just do the project with NO interruptions having to do with air! I've decided that I LOVE reupholstering things and so it's something I just need in life:) Then Clay got me a few things. First, I asked him to copy a print I saw online...and I'll just have to wait and show you after I take a pic- but it is AWESOME! I love it so much. Then he got me two cd's. Weezer's "Raditude"- which, is basically awesome. And Black Eye'd Peas, "The End". You should see me, or rather-hear me, when I'm driving and listening to Black Eye'd Peas. Seriously? You know those teenagers that pass by you in their car and you hear the loud BOOM...BOOOM....BOOOM....and you turn to your mom, or if your a mom you turn to your kid, and roll your eyes or shake your head...yeah. Well, that booming car is me. And I love it. I've gotta say- our car has a pretty nice bass to it, and when you listen to Boom Boom Pow (it's the name of one of their songs) it booms a lot. And I ROCK OUT to it. It's great. Don't get me wrong, I crank it with Weezer too- but it's really just two completely different experiences.
Anyway, he also gave me some play money too- which is meant to be spent at Home Fabrics. Which I plan on doing. SAWEET!
My work took me to Pita Pit for lunch (my fav), Clay's parents took us to Original Thai 2 (also a favorite) and then our friends met us at the local cheap seats to see "Dear John". It was aight. That's really all. Then yesterday Rebecca took me to Babe's bakery for lunch. It was delish. She offered to buy me a loaf of bread since I wasn't eating a treat. hahahahha. I told her, "its okay. but thanks!" I must say, it was pretty weird not having cake for my b-day.
I've definitely decided that I'm still holding out on treats until I've done it for 6 months. Meaning, July 1st, I will have a treat. I thought about planning it all out, what I would have that day...but I decided that I'll just make whatever sounds good that day.
Tomorrow is General Conference. Thank goodness. I am in desperate need of motivation in life. Hopefully this will do the trick. I know it will, as long as I honestly pay attention and try to gain knowledge. My poor husband has been on the receiving end of many mood swings. I don't know what's up but I feel like I've been a big big witch. With a capital B. I don't know. Anyway.
It snowed a lot last night. By the time it was 5:00 today you would've never known. All gone. I'm so sick of snow. I try and remember that it's a creation from God....you know. To help me love it. It just doesn't work. I think when I get in heaven I'm going to ask Heavenly Father if people really were meant to settle in Idaho. I'm not positive they were. I don't know. I just know that it's a trial in my life...who knows how long I'll be working on it.
People like to keep these things quiet, but I'm just gonna say it. I want a baby...so...freaking...bad. And they are everywhere I turn. I don't think we have any friends that we live by that don't have a baby. So it kinda feels like I'm the only person in the universe that's not a mom (which I know is not true so please refrain from the comments like, "oh there's so many people that don't have babies it just seems like it. I'm exaggerating....k?). Then it's like...if the babies are sleeping, we are talking about the babies...and then there's the fact that I don't really feel like I fit in as much as other people because I don't have a baby. It's like- all these people connect and share a bond that I just don't fit into. And conversations turn towards each other and then moms hang out with each other and I'm just here in limbo with like...no connections. All I have to talk about is sewing projects and...my dog. And then when I'm not around my friends, I'm thinking about or talking to my siblings who have kids or babies or about to have babies. I just know that women were meant to be moms. Because there comes a point, where you just need a baby. I know I'm only 22 years old...but I've almost been married 4 years. Which still probably sounds so soon to some people, but really- I don't care. I just know that my whole reason for existing in life is to be a mom. I know that for a fact. Which I think is why I've been so crummy lately because I keep feeling like my life is ridiculous. I'm an accountant. Woohoo. What a freaking exciting life. Not really. Blah. And I know being a mom isn't all glamorous so don't give me that soapbox either. Sorry.
Well, I am trying to sell my digital piano so I can buy a real one (a used old one of course). I hope it happens. There's lots on Craigslist for good prices...sooooo I'm just really hoping it happens.
Well- believe it or not- I totally started writing this thinking it'd be a good blog but it turned out depressing. I'm considering deleting everything...................but................you know what? I honestly like reading about people's problems because they make mine seem normal...or they make me feel like- oh, they aren't perfect (not that anyone thinks I'm perfect), or I can connect, or something. You know? Anyway-----hopefully I didn't depress anyone.
I really do know that I have a really good life. And I have so much to be grateful for. Sometimes I just feel crappy I guess. Love you guys.